I’m now 127.5 lbs (height 5’10”) and officially underweight.. Besides that I’m an exchange student and I really wanna finish my year. But unfortunately I might be sent home early if the organization that is in charge of m exchange thinks my eating disorder is severe enough to send me home… And apearantly that’s in most cases inevitable of any mental disorder… So the first thing I gotta do is gain weight… But a part of my mind is not willing to accept that, because that part isn’t happy with my reflection in the mirror and still wants to lose weight.
If you would have told me half a year ago that if I had to chose between eating anything or going home, I would have eaten everything I needed to… But now I seem not to be able to do that :(
How can I finally realize that eating is good, and eating more is even better because I need to gain weight… Or I am more likely to go home… And i DON’T wanna go home :(
Please help me?
Make me realize I’m good enough for who i am, and that that will not depend on how I look or how much I weight…