Another Wannabe Skinny Girl - I was looking through your blog a bit and I saw that you said you are teetering on needing help but not wanting it because you want to be skinny. Talk to someone who cares about you! Don’t let food control you and how you feel about your body. 700-800 calories before working out is not enough to feed your body and eating more won’t make you gain weight. There are girls on here that eat 2000+ calories and they look amazing! You’re beautiful and you don’t need to starve yourself.

I was looking through your blog a bit and I saw that you said you are teetering on needing help but not wanting it because you want to be skinny. Talk to someone who cares about you! Don't let food control you and how you feel about your body. 700-800 calories before working out is not enough to feed your body and eating more won't make you gain weight. There are girls on here that eat 2000+ calories and they look amazing! You're beautiful and you don't need to starve yourself. <3 isleepwithjello

Thanks for caring. My mom knows.. But since I’m studying abroad, she’s not here. And I actually meant that I eat 700-800 kcal in total a day… Besides that a couple of days ago I purged for the first time, and at the same time I’m trying to get off laxatives, though I’m pretty sure I’ll take them again.. I feel guilty for not eating, but when I eat I feel guilty for eating. Also„ I DID lose weight by doing all this, so apparently it is working. I think I’ve haven’t been this skinny since I was 14 or something, and I like it.
Basically I just don’t know what to do anymore…
RANT OVER…

1 year ago